I need you, you know. I'm not joking when I say that you're important. That you matter. And that it's not you, that it's me. I know it won't be easy to be... the way we were. But I don't think I can just deal with everyday without at least trying.
You're one of the most important people in my life. You caught me off guard since I... I didn't even think, it didn't occur to me that... that you could feel that way. It's just that... the feelings I have for my partner back home are complicated. He looked for me for nearly four years. I owe it to him, don't you think? I know... it's dumb. But if there's anything about me, I think that I'm dedicated and loyal. I can't just shrug it off or ignore our relationship.
If you need some space, I'll give it to you. But I can't just accept an empty room. I know that I joke about Golisopod all the time, but you matter. If he wasn't around I'd still care, I'd still fight for you. I'm sorry if I make it awkward and uncomfortable. But I don't have many friends, even back home. And without you...
[ Finally, there is something. Like a sigh, like pain, throbbing and uncertain. Red eyes and dragging along. Emptiness. Even through text, it's empty. ]
I don't want to disappoint you. But I'm not going to accept anything less than honesty. I'm not going to just settle and treat you like a... like a replacement. Because you're not. You're you.
Talk to me. Or just come back. Please. And... if you won't. Tell me about it, okay? Just offer me the same respect I've given you. I'll do whatever is comfortable for you, but we need to talk. Alright?
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I need you, you know. I'm not joking when I say that you're important. That you matter. And that it's not you, that it's me. I know it won't be easy to be... the way we were. But I don't think I can just deal with everyday without at least trying.
You're one of the most important people in my life. You caught me off guard since I... I didn't even think, it didn't occur to me that... that you could feel that way. It's just that... the feelings I have for my partner back home are complicated. He looked for me for nearly four years. I owe it to him, don't you think? I know... it's dumb. But if there's anything about me, I think that I'm dedicated and loyal. I can't just shrug it off or ignore our relationship.
If you need some space, I'll give it to you. But I can't just accept an empty room. I know that I joke about Golisopod all the time, but you matter. If he wasn't around I'd still care, I'd still fight for you. I'm sorry if I make it awkward and uncomfortable. But I don't have many friends, even back home. And without you...
[ Finally, there is something. Like a sigh, like pain, throbbing and uncertain. Red eyes and dragging along. Emptiness. Even through text, it's empty. ]
I don't want to disappoint you. But I'm not going to accept anything less than honesty. I'm not going to just settle and treat you like a... like a replacement. Because you're not. You're you.
Talk to me. Or just come back. Please. And... if you won't. Tell me about it, okay? Just offer me the same respect I've given you. I'll do whatever is comfortable for you, but we need to talk. Alright?
Thanks.
Um. Soon. Talk to me. Please.